Smakin Hari Smakin Membosankan n Frustrating

Knape stiap ari aku rse smakin bosan ngn idop aku kt University ni...I am way far behind on my studies...i feel tense all the time...dgn assignment belambak2...dgn tak paham pe yg lect tgh explain kt dpn 2...tmbah2 subject Akaun...knape dye bce je oe yg ade kt slide 2....klo stakat bce, aku pon leh bce...i need to understand what she is trying to teach..tp dye xbg paham pon...dye cuma bce n bg lthan..pndai2 kte la nk phm2kn sndry...susah!!!!!

Slain dr 2, aku slalu je tense...knape ye??ak asyk mrh2..mcm mne wan leh sabar ngn aku, aku pon tatau...but, i hope he could be patient with me..but, ari 2 jasmin ( min ) ade tgur aku dpn2 dye..she said, aku xptot mcm ni..sbb nt wan akn lari dr aku...wan pon sokong..why did he had to say maybe one day he will..made me feel unsecured n loosing hopes..i hope i won't keep my hopes too high on him..cause one day, he will definitely break me apart...n when that happens, everything bad comes into thoughts...

Sometimes i feel like i wanna go home..but home is more worse than here...nothing i can do but sleep all day..uhh, how can i say to everyone what i'm having..what kind of sickness i have..wan would be so sad...also my friends..i am happy now..but why my life is so short...i know everyone will leave one day..but why am i the earliest?i'll tell them one day..but not now..

Now, i wanna live my life...i know i can.but i need support for all that...before, i can do so well in my studies because i was so so so happy...now, i feel depress all the time...i wanna cry...but tears won't just come out...