Last night, i couldn't keep my eyes closed...i kept crying and crying..thinking about why my life ended up like this..i never asked for it..they keep hurting and breaking my heart..i wanna live my life..but why is it so hard..every one i ever did love, kept on leaving me one by one...once, they loved me so damn much, now, they tend to leave me...even they are here, felt like they were never here at all..
To tell the truth, i miss my long lost brother..he's here..but it's like he never did...i want the brother that once loved me so much..and cried when i did wrong..try making me feel alright..my best friend...my everything..he is my everything..i love him so much..but, he's no longer there when i need him so badly..
I cried all night thinking just about him and saffuwan a.k.a wan...i need both of them here with me..when
wan is here near to me, he kept me feeling all nice inside..he made me forget about my past..he made me happy..no one has ever made that..even he doesn't know my real problem, but he still tried his best..i just wanna stick with him forever..but i'm afraid...what if he left me like the others who kept leaving me..i'm so afraid...if he does, well that'll take everything away from me..my broken heart, keep breaking till it couldn't be mend anymore...people kept saying, my life is so wonderful..cause i kept getting what i want...but deep inside, they don't really know what i've been through..i want my old life back..where there's laughter, happiness, craziness, friends who were always there right beside you, everything i ever loved...well now, it's just nothing but hopes and dreams..
