Changing For The Better and Worse!

Believe it or not??someone said that i'm changing..hahahaha...thought i'd never hear those words..but i just did...hehe...loving it...he said that i'm changing in a good way..wow!!my ears were like about to drop...but the fact is, they didn't..hahaha...

Before, i was like always, burning my head off for something so small, being mean and bossy, wanting this and that...and if i don't get what i want, surely i will burst into flames.....huhu..what a statement i've made...but since i got into a fight with wan which caused me to cry a river, i changed a bit...last time, he kept following what i asked him to do, he did those...but when it comes to me, i wouldn't do what he wanted me to...i am the exact opposite...and what i do, is exactly opposite of what he is asking me to...like for instance, he'll ask me to go home instead of just lazing around at the tennis court...but i surely wouldn't do that..he scolded me, asking me rudely....for sure i won't listen...i like doing what people don't want me too..when he scolded me, i felt like, why should i follow...huhh!

But when he gave me permission, i would definitely decline..hahahaha..how weird could i ever get...i've been asking the same question all over since i was a kid...

Now, he said that i'm changing...being a good girl...listening n understanding him well..i can't take on another fight...i hurts...huhu...he is so good to me..why couldn't i be more better than him..he is trying his best..but sometimes i couldn't just give him the chance...

I am having a splendid time now..got great friends...katak n kambing...hahahaha..katak keeps staying in her "longkang'...sleeping all day long...ask for kambing, i keep seeing her every single day..haha..kambing with her own world...learning to accept the fact about her world full of fantasy...katak with her world full of drain in her ears..hehe..but i surely miss her too...she makes us laugh all the time...

KAMBING!!

KATAK!!

My world of fantasy starts last year..and it will never end..i hope so...

Smakin Hari Smakin Membosankan n Frustrating

Knape stiap ari aku rse smakin bosan ngn idop aku kt University ni...I am way far behind on my studies...i feel tense all the time...dgn assignment belambak2...dgn tak paham pe yg lect tgh explain kt dpn 2...tmbah2 subject Akaun...knape dye bce je oe yg ade kt slide 2....klo stakat bce, aku pon leh bce...i need to understand what she is trying to teach..tp dye xbg paham pon...dye cuma bce n bg lthan..pndai2 kte la nk phm2kn sndry...susah!!!!!

Slain dr 2, aku slalu je tense...knape ye??ak asyk mrh2..mcm mne wan leh sabar ngn aku, aku pon tatau...but, i hope he could be patient with me..but, ari 2 jasmin ( min ) ade tgur aku dpn2 dye..she said, aku xptot mcm ni..sbb nt wan akn lari dr aku...wan pon sokong..why did he had to say maybe one day he will..made me feel unsecured n loosing hopes..i hope i won't keep my hopes too high on him..cause one day, he will definitely break me apart...n when that happens, everything bad comes into thoughts...

Sometimes i feel like i wanna go home..but home is more worse than here...nothing i can do but sleep all day..uhh, how can i say to everyone what i'm having..what kind of sickness i have..wan would be so sad...also my friends..i am happy now..but why my life is so short...i know everyone will leave one day..but why am i the earliest?i'll tell them one day..but not now..

Now, i wanna live my life...i know i can.but i need support for all that...before, i can do so well in my studies because i was so so so happy...now, i feel depress all the time...i wanna cry...but tears won't just come out...