My not so sweet life: December 2011

Hey peeps...mcm la aku ada reader..haha.that ain't a problem.I just love to express my feelings here where I couldn't anywhere else..hmm..It has been long since I've typed anything in this blog..Dusty all over..hehe.

Anyways, I've been through a rough Semester.Sampai benci tros sem nih.Felt like I wanna start over from the beginning.Start everything fresh like before.It has been hard for me to move on with my besties who are currently not in the same class as I am, and also my Sweetie dropping out of UiTM Arau.He's moving on to Selangor, studying there after he got the letter saying that he has been accepted for SPA.hmm..

Problems kept coming and coming without rests.First, after the accident I went through, I've just destroyed my ex-housemate's new bike.So me and the driver of the bike have to pay for damages.I tell ya, it wasn't cheap.500++ per person ok?!

Secondly, my health problems.I kept falling sick ever since I fell off that bike.Because of health issues, I skipped classes.

Thirdly, I really don't have that much friends..I mean, friends I have, but not really close.So, it's pretty hard to adapt with new ones.They are like groups kinda friends.So it ain't easy for people to take up new members into a group.Damn!.Whenever there's a group task, I have to find a group which I don't really know how to find.My close friends in the same class *actually not that close but ok lah*, couldn't just take me in that group in a snap.Because most assignments uses only 4 persons in a group.They already have 4 people.ADOI! Till now, it still is a pain in the ass.

Fourthly, I got a new room..Thank God, My room was on the last floor.So, no need to climb up the stairs.The problem isn't my new roomates.Nope.But, the types of roomates I have.They are really silent kinda people.The other one keeps blabbering about her BF who already has another GF.It makes her as the guy's Scandal.But she never gives a damn about it.I wan't my old crazy roomates back.They make me feel at home.But now I'm forcing myself to stay here, but deep down inside, I am very very very UNHAPPY!.

Lastly, I never hoped this day would come.But yes, he got accepted for SPA.Don't know what that stands for.But it's Hospital kinda thingy.It has been more than a week since I've seen him in the flesh.I am really not used to going classes without him, eating at the diner near my hostel and so much more.He usually calls me, just to make sure I wake up and get ready for class.At lunch time, he'd eat with me at 'APPLE' *name of the diner*, makes me wanna eat more 'till I'm bloated.Every evening, when we have a free time, we'd go to the tennis court.Just to spend some time together, away from hectic lives.We'd watch his friends shoot some hoops.For dinner, I usually eat at 'Kulat' *name of place*..I really love the porridge there.we'd eat and talk all night *well, I'm the one who talks the most, cause he loves to listen*.Oh yeah, I will never forget all the hard times I've been through and he struggles the hardest just to make me feel better.When I'm sick, he'd buy me food and makes sure I eat up most of it.He'd accompany me to the 'Unit Kesihatan' just to make sure I'm safe and well.He'd be there for me no matter what.So, it'll be pretty hard for me to go through my days without him.What am I capable of without him.He always asks me to do everything on my own, try living my days without his guidance.Because, he said that someday he won't be around to be there for me every time I need him.Well, i didn't listen.Now he got me thinking.

So, Tomorrow is New Year..I need to set my goals high..hopes higher.Cause I wanna be somebody one day.Please pray for me.I wanna start all over again.And forget the past..Know why??Cause We only have one life.So, better make the best of it..Or you'll lose..Thanks..See ya.

Oh yeah, down here are some pictures of people who matter to me.. =)